The Wonderful World of AL

Tuesday, May 31, 2005

Happy Happy Joy Joy

*sings* - "...You're not just another lover, no you're everything to me!"
*dances around room, waving hands in the air like a stoned windmill*

The weather is fucking freezing, and it looks as if rain is on the way, but I don't care. I get to use my camo-print unbrella. I got told the other day that umbrella's are apparently SO gay - who gives a fuck if they are? Aside from the fact that I myself am SO gay, they keep people DRY. Ingenius idea really.

Recently, however bright the smiley face to the right may be, I've been feeling a little down. Not alot, just a little. You see, I met someone. A very nice person, someone I'd like to get to know a little better, as I imagine them to be quite a fun pseron to be around, and a great friend. Problem? Their ex is MY ex - proof that it IS a small world out there for one, but secondly it's proof that some people never mature, and find the only way to deal with issues is to resort to bitchiness and cruelty. It sucks, because now, I feel like I've lucked out on making friends with someone who actually seems to be sincere. Life's a fucking bitch sometimes.

Luv AL, xoxox!

AL rambled on at 9:50 AM - -

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Friday, May 27, 2005

Extended Day Trip

Well, once again, I'm off to the city tomorrow. I need to buy more music. I hate it how GOOD dance music is hard to find in the country, and when it IS accessible, it costs shitloads more than if I travelled up to the city to buy it. So that's my mission.

Go to the city

Buy a good CD or two

Get deterred by the thousands of shops that sell t-shirts with rude slogans on them

Deliberately miss my train

Go out on the town, drink WAY more than I intended to

Stay awake ALL night

Stumble to the train station in themorning

End up waiting for an hour because I mis-read the train's departure time
and then sleep all the way home.

Marvelous plan.

AL rambled on at 12:34 PM - -

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Thursday, May 26, 2005

Angry again

With my side-blog up and running, you won't find anything raunchy on here anymore. Over the past few months, I've been receiving some rather nasty emails from people, mainly strangers, who have read my blog posts, and chosen not to just ignore them. I don't let people get to me, especially close-minded bastards who feel they have to pry into the personal lives of others and abuse their life choices. But recently, some of these threats have become violent - involving death threats and the like. I'm sickened by this. Not because it's made me slightly paranoid of the people who are sending these emails, but by the general idea that some people out there are so shallow, so discriminatory and so hurtful. People I don't even fucking know.
Anyone care to challenge my thoughts? Fuckin' BRING IT ON!

Luv AL, xoxox

AL rambled on at 1:23 PM - -

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Wednesday, May 25, 2005

Random Thoughts #2

"Morning. I crawl out of bed, blinded by sunlight, i lift myself up lazily, my feet crashing down upon a mountain of paper. On my desk, candle wax has spilled into a frozen cascade, reaching towards the littered floor. My hands are weak, red & raw, but I strive to snap myself out of the weary trance that engulfs me. I foce myself up into my chair, & focus on what lay before me. A blank piece of paper, waiting to be filled with the words from my soul, as I sit here, and drink myself to death..."

An entry from my personal journal, written exactly a year ago. So far, I've filled FOUR 320 page books full of thoughts, dreams and sketches. Together, they're one of my most prized posessions. Luckily, when my flat burned to the ground (*curses lousy neighbours*), I managed to salvage these memories. I spent last night flicking through the pages, and it was like having the past 3 years slowly flash through my mind. Friends that have come and gone, successful parties that have been thrown and attended, and the arguments, conflict and depressive sessions I have fought my way through. It's interesting to see the differences between the ways I dealt with crap in 2002, to now. I think I've matured quite a bit - I think things through logically now, rather than making rash decisions which just lead to more mess. I'm happy that I have some record of my progress through life in recent times. Who knows, if I keep this up, as I'm sure I will, I'll have amassed hundreds of books by the time I'm 50!

I'm planning a weekend retreat in the next month or so. Just by myself. I need to get away from everything. From everyone. I've been feeling somewhat stressed out recently, and my doctor says if I don't give myself a break soon, I may risk "burning myself out" mentally. I'll most likely head north, somwhere along the east coast, on the ocean. I've also been thinking about places I'd like to travel overseas. I have a top 10...
10) Berlin. Can you say "Love Parade"?
9) Italy: Venice, Pisa, Rome. So much history and culture. What more could a photography-whore ask for?
8) Bermuda. More so, I want to cruise through the elusive "triangle", and actually come back.
7) Peru. More so, "The City in the Sky". I've only ever seen it in photos. I can only imagine what it loks like inreal life.
6) Amsterdam. I don't think I really have to explain.
5) Egypt. The Pyramids. Plus, the weather would be to my liking. Hot and arid... nice.
4) Cedar Point theme park, Sandusky, Ohio. I'm addicted to rollercoasters. It seems fitting.
3) China. I want to walk the whole length of the Great Wall. That would be a great achievement to me.
2) Ibiza, in summer, Of course... it's like THE island that would possibly match my lifestyle down to a tee.
1) Disneyworld Resort, Orlando. I doubt you could wipe the smile off my face the whole time I'd be there.

Don't ya hate it when you wake up too early, but then you can't get back to sleep? That happened to me thismorning, and now I feel somewhat run down, even though it's STILL morning. I must stop watching Big Brother Uplate.

Luv AL, xoxox!

AL rambled on at 1:22 PM - -

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Monday, May 23, 2005

Singing a song about weed.

Song lyrics in Blogs. If they're your own, great. I love reading new, original material, because they're personal. But if you're going to post the lyrics to a song that already exists, there's a good chance I won't even take the effort to read them. What's the point? To get a song I probably don't even like, stuck in my head for the rest of the day? Why do people do this? It's like they don't have anything worthwhile to write, so they rip off somebody else's words and paste them down on their own blog to describe the mood they're in. Write you're own damn lyrics. Be fucking original. Sorry if some of my mates out there have done this in the past, but please, you gotta see my point...

My thoughts on the new Star Wars flick? Meh...

I had a fucking great day yesterday. After a marvelous drive home, I invited a couple of old mates around, chucked on The Doors, got stoned, and reminisced about old times. I don't see the OCCASIONAL weed-session as being bad. It's when people use it daily, to escape any form of reality, that pisses me off. I also have a laugh at those who abuse the high marijuana gives, by mixing it with alcohol as a means to get completely wasted. What tossers. But anyway - there's nothing comparable chillout-wise for me, than to relax with a joint in hand on a Sunday afternoon, having a "memory blitz" with good friends. I highly recommend it. And if you're one of those people who frown upon drugs, and/or their users, well... loosen up!

I read in the paper today that men who ejaculate more than 5 times a week cut the risk of getting Prostate Cancer by ONE THIRD. If you're single, I'd start lovin' that hand action alot more...

Have a good week guys!
Luv AL xoxox

AL rambled on at 9:30 AM - -

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Saturday, May 21, 2005

Meh

I've gone without a cigarette for FOUR days now. Initially, I assumed I'd be going absolutely nuts by now, but surprisingly I'm not. I felt more energetic after the first 72 hours. Instead of my morning coffee thismorning, I went for a jog around the lake. I found that I was able to run further, with more consistency in my pace, rather than giving up halfway and slowing to a walk like I'd done countless times previously. I've gained a few kilos, since I've developed a larger appetite, but I'd expecting that, as smoking diminishes the appetite. Of course, I'd say the worst is yet to come. I went out last night with some friends last night, but decided to stay sober, aside from a complimentary Martini that my other-half bought for me. I think it's gonna be harder to refrain from slipping into my habit when I've had a few beers poured into me. Here's hoping I pull through...!

Ciao, xoxox

AL rambled on at 10:15 AM - -

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Friday, May 20, 2005

Different

I woke up sad today. I got out of bed, showered, had my ritualistic coffee, minus the usual cigarette, sat out on the patio, and just zoned out. I have something serious on my mind, but I don't really want to go into it, so I'll talk about something else.

Lately, well, up until today, I've been in a rather flirtacious mood. Some of you out there may have noticed this, especially if you have caught me over MSN. I'm taking a fairly good guess that it's because there are a lot of damn cute guys out there who have caught my eye. Thing is, I'm attached at the moment, and more so, my other-half doesn't mind. He doesn't mind me flirting with guys over chat, having the odd round of (extremely good) cybersex. Some may say this is wrong, infact, a lot of you may, and at first I did. But now that I've had a think about it, I guess I'm kind of lucky. We're both very sexual creatures. We both like our group sex. Our (A grade) porn. We both like making videos *blushes*, and whilst I write about sexual encounters (real & fantasy), he draws them. So if neither of us has a problem with the other indulging in our sexual fantasies, don't see any reason to make it a big deal. It may be a somewhat different view to most, but I'm liking it at the moment.

Now, back to today...I feel like a part of my soul vanished overnight. I suffer from mild depression, but I think it's getting worse. I feel like I'm losing my real self, and that I'm just becoming another version of everyone else, if you get what I'm saying. I don't feel individual anymore. Even though many say they like & love me, I don't understand why anymore. I can't remember the last time I was complimented by anyone, for anything. I feel like a lot of what I do is completely pointless and not worth doing. I'm not suicidal, I'm just getting a bit sick of life.

Oh, and HAPPY BIRTHDAY RHYSUMS XOXOX!!!

Ciao, xoxox

AL rambled on at 9:07 AM - -

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Thursday, May 19, 2005

Noise, Juice & Pop

It's known that I can't stand organ music. It gives me cold chills down my spine. I never really did well in churches because of it, not that I go into churches very much anyway. So I'm walking down the street with my friend Andrew, and surprise surprise - there's one of those mechanical carnival organs blasting out that ear-peircing noise which I love to hate. Worse yet, there was nowhere to escape to. Everywhere I had to go was in the vicinity of the awful racket. I think I've now word down my teeth an extra millimetre from the excessive grinding.

I've given up on the finding "the blog which does not exist", due to the fact that it's probably deeply depressive, which is SO NOT me... *cough* sarcasm *cough*...
As you can see, I've re-adjusted my template. My old one had problems anyway. Plus, the orange made me crave juice. Every time I looked at it. And ya know what too much juice does... which doesn't compliment my sex-filled lifestyle very well.

I bought Destiny' Child's "Girl" single today. Yes, AL has once again delved into the wonderful world of pop. But don't get me wrong, I ain't no "teeny-bopper". I relate to the lyrics, sometimes, if you replace the word "girl" with "guy"... even though the song don't sound right then... ok, so I don't change the words, but it has a nice melody. Why am I explaining myself anyway?

Ciao, xoxox

AL rambled on at 1:58 PM - -

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Tuesday, May 17, 2005

No Nicotine - Attempt #2

I'm on the road to becoming a BB Live Cam Whore... - http://bigbrother.3mobile.com.au/live.asp

RHYS - YOU ARE A LEGEND! But seriously, you are one genuinely nice guy *does single person Mexican Wave over keyboard with fingers*

I offically gave up smoking on Sunday. Mainly because I was sick. Yesterday I was fine. No nicotine for the day made me feel slightly more active than usual. Had a good night's sleep for once.
Today, I'm starting to get a little stressed. Once again, I'm taking the "sit-and-wait-for-5-minutes-until-the-cravings-pass" techinique, and I'm doing OK.

Ciao, xoxox!

AL rambled on at 1:19 PM - -

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Monday, May 16, 2005

Random Stuff #1

Sometimes it's funny to take a seat, and just observe all the people that surround you, and the characteristics that they show when they don't notice you being there...

Here's an interesting chunk of my MSN conversation I had just before:

i feel like i wanna be inside of you (when the sun goes down)... says:
i climb on top of you and begin stroking myself and you
i feel like i wanna be inside of you (when the sun goes down)... says:
i want us to cum together
AL™ says:
I can feel myself on the brink of cumming, and I start to stroke your cock with my fingertips....
AL™ says:
I grab your cock, and hold it over my chest.... as you start to jack off hard
i feel like i wanna be inside of you (when the sun goes down)... says:
your hands make me get harder
AL™ says:
I can feel that you're close to cumming.....
i feel like i wanna be inside of you (when the sun goes down)... says:
yeah i am
AL™ says:
(in real life too?)
i feel like i wanna be inside of you (when the sun goes down)... says:
i go at it faster
i feel like i wanna be inside of you (when the sun goes down)... says:
yah in real life i meant actually
i feel like i wanna be inside of you (when the sun goes down)... says:
im soooo hot right now
AL™ says:
Sweat is literally pouring off me.... I can feel my cock twitch
AL™ says:
and suddenly I'm sputing my hot cum allover your chest
i feel like i wanna be inside of you (when the sun goes down)... says:
i start cumming all over you too
i feel like i wanna be inside of you (when the sun goes down)... says:
loads of it
AL™ says:
I pull your cock up to my mouth.... and slam your cock down my mouth.... drinking up that sweet juice...

I felt like being naughty, so I chose to pursue this feeling... soz if I grossed any of you out... I write stories like this sometimes. It's a weird little hobby of mine...

Ciao, xoxox

AL rambled on at 2:55 AM - -

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Friday, May 13, 2005

Drugs, Raves, and Possibly more Drugs

Song of da Mo: "Love Comes Again" - Teisto & BT (Original Mix)

I'm in a happy mood. I'm slowly getting better, although I'm finding it absolutely impossible to sleep. It just seems like I'm thrown one problem after the next - but at the moment, I don't give a flying fuck.

I look at the back of the box the holds my anti-biotics. It states that I shouldn't consume alcohol whilst on the medication. O...K... do the manufacturers of this drug realise that I like to go out and have fun on the weekends? Surely a few drinks won't turn me into a zombie... I'll be right. I just have to drink in moderation... which somewhat saddens me.

I'm off to Slinky in June... Yay for me! It's been awhile since me and a whole group of mates have been to Melbourne Park together to dance our arse's off for 10 hours straight...
Have fun people!

Ciao, xoxox

AL rambled on at 9:09 AM - -

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Wednesday, May 11, 2005

:-)

*argh*
I have what doctors call "Stomatitis" or in crass terms, "Trench Mouth" - can be cause from senotional stress, smoking, and poor nutrition. Seems I haven't been looking after myself as well as I thought. So now, I sit here, while my gums are throbbing with horrendous pain, as I wait to see the doctor tomorrow. *curls up into a little balls and cries*

I've been watching ALOT of The OC recently, though I don't tend to follow the storylines that much. It's all "random fight here", "lesbian kiss there" bullshit. I just like to perve on Ben. I'm also buiding up my muscle a bit which is good. I now have a six-pack, and very proud to show it off.

I hope it'll rain soon. I love rain. I love sitting inside, and watching the raindrops race eachother down the window sill. I love the feeling of being warm and dry, snuggled up in my favorite chair, reading a good book. When it rains, you'll rarely find me on the computer, or watching TV. I find rainy days the best time to relax, and get away from the world. If it's night time, I'll turn the lights off, and light candles around the room. Burn some incence (Sandalwood's my favorite), and draw random sketch upon sketch until my creativity streak has run dry. I hope it rains later today.

In other news, I would like to state that Big Brother is even better than before. The reason being? Dean and the Logan twins. Never have I been looking forward so much to BB Uncut, which unfortunately, doesn't start for another week... dammit. And those showers were SO made for my viewing pleasure! For more info on why Australia's Big Brother series kicks ass over any other country's, click HERE !

Hmmm... oh yeah, and Anton (my sexy boyfriend who makes me so happy) is taking me shopping, for an engagement ring, on Saturday. Yeah, even thought it's gay marriage isn't legal in Australia, he proposed to me anyway... on a date, infront of many people... and I was so emotionally happy I cried..!

Ciao xoxox

AL rambled on at 12:53 PM - -

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Tuesday, May 10, 2005

BB5

It's been 2 days since Big Brother 5 premiered on Australian television, and I'm already addicted to it. I find myself registered on the website, watching Live Video streaming of the house. I stay up 'til 11:45pm to watch Big Brother Uplate, just to see what the housemates are up to at some ungodly hour. I've always liked the idea of the game show. To put 12-14 people in a house, like guinea pigs, and film their each and every move 24/7 - whilst a godlike man named Big Brother, who this year seems to be an absolute cunt, orders them around like slaves, making them perform tasks in order to get food and luxuries. Ontop of all this, each contestant is striving to play the game, and survive the longest, in order to win $1,000,000. Bloody marvelous.

Anton came to visit me last night, but unfortunately, because of my illness, sex was not part of the scenario. It kinda sucked, because we both got really horny, but the pain in my gums was too overwhelming, and if anything were to have happened, it wouldn't have been that enjoyable. Damn. Overall though, the night was a roaring success, once again. I have some good news to share, but not right at this moment. I will say that it has something to do with taking our relationship s step further - that's most likely got your curiousity going eh?

Songs of da mo:
"Ware House", by Jon Doe ~ a hard, driving track from the Hard Trance genre. Perfect "hands-in-the-air" melody, backed by an infectious bassline.

Ciao, xoxox

AL rambled on at 9:29 AM - -

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Monday, May 09, 2005

Short

Nothing much happening. I'm slowly watching the drama based around my Boyfriend's blog, going to the dentists later *CRINGES*, and partying as usual. Oh, and then there's work, but it's not really worth mentioning eh?

Someone say something interesting. I've notcied a decline in blog comments, and it makes me sad. Not really. But, um... yeah...

Ciao, xoxox

AL rambled on at 10:26 AM - -

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Friday, May 06, 2005

One week... of fads!

Tough Question of the Week: If you had the choice, yes or no, of picking ANY car in the world, with the only catch being that the radio would ONLY play "One Week" by the Barenaked Ladies on repeat FOREVER, would you take it?

Kabbalah - I've read up a little on it, borrowed books from the library and such, and I see understand it's theories. But would I have heard of it if it wasn't so hyped up in the media? Probably not. Maybe a slight chance, because I'm constantly browsing the New Age section in bookstores, but it wouldn't have been thrown in my face so frequently. The same this happened awhile ago, though not to the same extent, with the Church of Scientology. Celebrities joining the religious-fad bandwagon, and flaunting their faith infront of the press, so it gains worldwide recognition. Wicca had taken a giant leap backwards in tradition, because movies and "certain tv shows" have hyped up the more appealing factors of spells and magic. Bookstores are crammed with cheaply produced spellbooks describing how to get someone to fall in love with you, and how to welcome more money into your lives. Religion and spirituality is a private and personal thing. I've firmly felt that it's not only un-necessary, but downright rude to attempt to "convert" a person from one faith to another. Now it's being advertised to millions through the celebrity-obsessed media. Don't people have any fucking morals nowadays?

I've noticed how juice bars have been sprouting up, like mushrooms after rain, allover Australia. Another fad? Quite possibly, yes, bad this one ain't such a bad thing. These juice bars, under such guises as "Boost Jooce" and the marvelously named "Julius Squeezer", are rivaling the big brand coffee houses that are also dominating the consumer market. In Melbourne, there's a Starbucks, Gloria Jean's or Hudsons coffee shop on every second corner. Personally, I'd take an orange, pinapple and carrot juice rather than a Vanilla flavoured coffee anyday. What's your choice? To put it bluntly, are you a caffiene freak, or a health nut?

Song of da Mo: "Canned Heat" - Jamiroquai

Quote of da Mo: "Where's the ka-boom? There was supposed to be an earth-shattering ka-boom!" - Marvin Martian

Ciao, xoxox

AL rambled on at 9:13 AM - -

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Thursday, May 05, 2005

Words

Smoke curls up in hypnotic waves against a canvas of pitch black sky, ocasionally broken by small clusters of stars, and clouds, lost amidst their sloth-like journeys around this great big ball of solid dirt we call Earth.

I'm still in "The Land of Woeful Illness" - and it's not helped by the fact I have to go in for dental surgery tomorrow. I REALLY shouldn't of watched Final Destination 2 last night.

"<---Hot! Who agrees?

Ciao, xoxox

AL rambled on at 9:35 AM - -

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Tuesday, May 03, 2005

Sick

I'm so terribubly sick, and I'm loathing work at this moment.
Nuff Said.
Ciao,
XOXOX

AL rambled on at 2:41 PM - -

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Hellieu. The name's AL (duh!) - I'm 23, gay, 85% happy, 15% evil, supremely optimistic, highly energetic, and addicted to sex.
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